The If’s and Should’s
I should be getting the kids ready for school. I should be showering. I should be doing a lot of things right now. I should feed the dog so she won’t puke on the carpet. I should be folding laundry or returning work-related emials, but then I’m ignoring the kids. The reality is I want a break and it is only Wednesday morning.
We’re having company today and I should be cleaning the house. I should have food prepared and possibly some wine on hand that someone would actually want to drink because it tastes good. Not because they are desperate for a drink because the kids haven’t napped and dinner is running late. When I think of these things I laugh. Bitterly. There just isn’t time.
If I work. I don’t shower before school pick up. If I clean it is the same thing. If I stay up late to work then I don’t spend time with my husband or get the sleep I need. The If’s and Should’s are swallowing me up whole this week. I can’t seem to get a handle on our days or why time is slipping through my fingers as easily as grains of sand in an hourglass. As I write this I begin to type the same sentence over again as if it is a new thought. My brain clearly working on only one neuron and not a whole network of them.
Speaking of networks maybe Sprint should have had a few If’s and Should’s in their brain set when they decided to air their “tv shows” during ‘Desperate Housewives’. But I digress. A lot.
